There are moments in life when every single one of us can consider himself as a foolish, idealistic and blind human being.
Two days ago I had a dream. This dream totally reassure me of my own foolishness.
It is a matter of teen-aged naive girls to fall in love with a musician they not only know personally but it is more than likely that he will never recognize them.
It is that blind madness together with hopeless hopes and nights of lying while staring at an empty ceiling... Your thoughts run like hell. You ask in your head so many questions beginning with a huge -WHAT IF?-.
However. Since I know how strong is my mind and intuition... I simply cannot give up.
Two years of dreaming of those sharp teeth of my little vampire. Thoughtless walks... listening just and only to his deep voice. Staring again and again at pictures of his smile.
As I said. Foolishness.
But what can I do with my conviction while knowing how much was I so many times right?
And I do believe we belong together.
I got one of my best friends and soulmates ever just because I believed in this possible frienship. For how many years we had known each other until she accepted me? And now she put me among frostdeers and shares with me her own foolish existence.
And it was me who felt we somehow belong together.
And it was not the only case.
So why shouldn't I be right again?
Few times in my damn life I felt alive and in love. But nothing lasted for two years in such an intense shape.
I may be naive. A naive desperate child.
But passionate.
And scared.
And hoping.
Why the hell do my feelings behave like a monster creature living on a roller coaster?
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